Welcome to Kacey's Corner. "Silhouettes" painting © 2000 Tom Sierak MEMORIES Kacey Yesterday, we walked by the lake, hand in hand-- shutting out a world of uncertainty existing only for the day. We shared laughter, secrets and the fun and appreciation for just being alive. >We threw caution to the winds-- throwing off our restrictive clothing, and jumped in-- my first experience with skinny-dipping. The cold water surrounding us, we romped like kids --never dreaming it would ever end for us. Carefree, totally absorbed in our time together and never believing for a moment that someday,this would not be ours to enjoy. Shivering, we scrambled out, drying in the warm mid-day sun-- and found our place on the bank. I had made sandwiches, and had brought wine-- not my usual beverage in the middle of the day. I wanted to make this day special--as if they weren't all special with you. Enjoying the warm and stimulating taste-- never seeming to get enough of each other's dreams and wanting to always share with each other our hopes for a future together-- I was sure this moment would be one of many beautiful memories we would share. Today, I walk by the lake, alone and afraid. I've lost my companion, my lover and my friend. I have no desire to even go in the water-- to feel it's coldness forcing me back to reality. I keep wondering why you left so suddenly -leaving only sweet memories. Were you afraid of commitment, or did you just feel that something so beautiful couldn't last? Tomorrow, I may have someone new. We'll go walking by the same lake-- we'll laugh, maybe hold hands and perhaps I will forget you for just awhile. We may even go swimming-- and it might take you from my thoughts for then-- but who will be there when darkness comes and those thoughts of you will not let me sleep-- agonizing, unending thoughts, obliterating my need for peaceful rest. Will he laugh with me the way you did? We found so many things to be happy about-- basking in the pure pleasure of each other. Will he replace you in my mind-- giving me relief, however temporary, from my misery? I watch the swans and ducks on the lake envying their aloofness and I wonder if I should have ever given myself so completely to you. I decide that it was worth it and I turn and walk away-- back to normal activities and my usual day. You are out of my mind for a few hours but what will prevent you from sneaking in like a thief in the night later? I miss you so much. I wonder--by any chance, are you missing me? All poetry rights reserved.